Driving home today this song came on the radio and I begun to cry, cry for all my wonderful childhood memories, cry for the loss of my father, cry for the loss of my childhood. So I thought I needed to share.
I know they say you cant go home again.
I just had to come back one last time.
Ma'am I know you don't know me from Adam.
But these handprints on the front steps are mine.
And up those stairs, in that little back bedroom
is where I did my homework and I learned to play guitar.
And I bet you didn't know under that live oak
my favorite dog is buried in the yard.
I thought if I could touch this place or feel it
this brokenness inside me might start healing.
Out here its like I'm someone else,
I thought that maybe I could find myself
if I could just come in I swear I'll leave.
Won't take nothing but a memory
from the house that built me.
Mama cut out pictures of houses for years.
From 'Better Homes and Garden' magazines.
Plans were drawn, concrete poured,
and nail by nail and board by board
Daddy gave life to mama's dream.
I thought if I could touch this place or feel it
this brokenness inside me might start healing.
Out here its like I'm someone else,
I thought that maybe I could find myself.
If I could just come in I swear I'll leave.
Won't take nothing but a memory
from the house that built me.
You leave home, you move on and you do the best you can.
I got lost in this whole world and forgot who I am.
I thought if I could touch this place or feel it
this brokenness inside me might start healing.
Out here its like I'm someone else,
I thought that maybe I could find myself.
If I could walk around I swear I'll leave.
Won't take nothing but a memory
from the house that built me.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Friday, May 14, 2010
A tribute
Today I take to my blog in a toast to my dear dear friend Jilly...(her full name won't be used.) But she knows who she is.
This morning I recieved a wonderful phone call. My friend Jilly is now the reciepient of the Ford Scholarship. Now friends this scholorship is not your ordinary everyday scholarship. This is a life changing scholarship.
First and foremost I must congratulate all of the Ford Applicants and say that you are all remarkable and I am proud of each and everyone of you.
Jilly! A toast is in order - you are a warrior...not just a warrior you are a VAGINA WARRIOR. And without you, I wouldn't have been quite the VAGINA WARRIOR that I have become. Without you I would have never been a part of Vagina Monologues and for that I cannot thank you enough. What a wonderful experience. And to share it with you. You have inspired my year of change. And this year has been an amazing year for me thus far and it is only May. We have been friends for a very long time - seen each other through more than anyone should go through in a lifetime or 2 lifetimes. You and I have grown from sad, scared, little girls who were becoming mothers - to AMAZING, FIERCE and FEARLESS WOMEN - AND SINGLE MOTHERS WITH WONDERFUL, BRIGHT, HAPPY, HEALTHY CHILDREN!! We did it! You have inspired my year of change. You have been my friend through thick and through thin - we have cried together and laughed together. You have come back to school to change your life and change the world. And that you are doing daily. You are an inspiration to me. You have been such a role model not only to me but to young women and mothers entering the community of Portland Community College. WOW. Jilly you are a rockstar. I am speechless and overwhelmed with things I want to say to you and to the world about how remarkable a woman I think you are. You are raising 2 young boys who will become wonderful little men, courtesy of their mother who has made their life possible. You my friend have earned this. You have set out on a mission for success and change and now my friend you have the opportunity to make it all happen.
So with that I say to you and to the universe. Jilly I am proud of you and you are my hero today and every day. Please never stop changing the world. I love you.
Happy Reading!
This morning I recieved a wonderful phone call. My friend Jilly is now the reciepient of the Ford Scholarship. Now friends this scholorship is not your ordinary everyday scholarship. This is a life changing scholarship.
First and foremost I must congratulate all of the Ford Applicants and say that you are all remarkable and I am proud of each and everyone of you.
Jilly! A toast is in order - you are a warrior...not just a warrior you are a VAGINA WARRIOR. And without you, I wouldn't have been quite the VAGINA WARRIOR that I have become. Without you I would have never been a part of Vagina Monologues and for that I cannot thank you enough. What a wonderful experience. And to share it with you. You have inspired my year of change. And this year has been an amazing year for me thus far and it is only May. We have been friends for a very long time - seen each other through more than anyone should go through in a lifetime or 2 lifetimes. You and I have grown from sad, scared, little girls who were becoming mothers - to AMAZING, FIERCE and FEARLESS WOMEN - AND SINGLE MOTHERS WITH WONDERFUL, BRIGHT, HAPPY, HEALTHY CHILDREN!! We did it! You have inspired my year of change. You have been my friend through thick and through thin - we have cried together and laughed together. You have come back to school to change your life and change the world. And that you are doing daily. You are an inspiration to me. You have been such a role model not only to me but to young women and mothers entering the community of Portland Community College. WOW. Jilly you are a rockstar. I am speechless and overwhelmed with things I want to say to you and to the world about how remarkable a woman I think you are. You are raising 2 young boys who will become wonderful little men, courtesy of their mother who has made their life possible. You my friend have earned this. You have set out on a mission for success and change and now my friend you have the opportunity to make it all happen.
So with that I say to you and to the universe. Jilly I am proud of you and you are my hero today and every day. Please never stop changing the world. I love you.
Happy Reading!
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Rules of Driving...another addition
16. Do not shave bikini line while driving...not only is it unsafe but really gross to boot.
17. If you have not applied your makeup when you left you house, please do not so while driving, even if you try to do it at a stop light that is not adequate time to fix your face...and trust me you look a lot better without make up than you would as a cyclops because you poked out your eye with a mascara wand.
18. When driving in a construction zone where lanes are closed and cones have designated new lanes, don't think that just because you don't understand the lane system that the rest of us are in the same boat cause chances are we do get it...considering thats why we are in the new lanes to begin with and we would greatly appreciate if you cannot follow the directions that you wait your turn and get in at the END of the line not squeezing in where ever you see fit. It makes people mad and at that point you have a better chance of hitting someones car than getting let in...and stupidity isn't a good excuse for cops or for your insurance.
To Be Continued...
Happy Reading!
17. If you have not applied your makeup when you left you house, please do not so while driving, even if you try to do it at a stop light that is not adequate time to fix your face...and trust me you look a lot better without make up than you would as a cyclops because you poked out your eye with a mascara wand.
18. When driving in a construction zone where lanes are closed and cones have designated new lanes, don't think that just because you don't understand the lane system that the rest of us are in the same boat cause chances are we do get it...considering thats why we are in the new lanes to begin with and we would greatly appreciate if you cannot follow the directions that you wait your turn and get in at the END of the line not squeezing in where ever you see fit. It makes people mad and at that point you have a better chance of hitting someones car than getting let in...and stupidity isn't a good excuse for cops or for your insurance.
To Be Continued...
Happy Reading!
I was told I was missed...
So as I sit her contemplating what to write, I sit back and think about things that have been going on in the world around me. Although my own personal world isn't terribly exciting (it is mostly filled with anatomy and physiolgy)...so I lost my train of thought already. I suppose there wasn't much there to begin with.
BUT anyways...I was thinking back to a story that I heard about the day after mothers day and it really touched my heart it was about a young man a pitcher for the Oakland A's named Dallas Braden, this young man lost his mother some years back I am not sure how many, but this game was on mother's day. He pitched his first perfect game on Mother's Day and sadly enough his mother was not there to see him complete this amazing feat. His grandmother however was there to see it. And this touched me so greatly, when I heard about this I thought how wonderful for him. I also thought of how sad it made me that more people didn't care about the sweet emotional significance.
Again on this subject I think of Phil Mickelson and his win at the Masters this year and how touching it was to see his wife who is battling for her lfe with breast cancer as is his mother to be there to hug him that end. And to see in his eyes that nothing meant more in the world than to hold her in his arms to be able to share his accomplishments with her, that green jacket could come or go, but in his arms is where he always wanted her to stay.
In a world where we gawk more that train wrecks that are in the public eye ie Lindsay Lohan, Tiger Woods and the list goes on...we forget about the sweet inherant goodness and love of one another, and how special that is and how much more that needs to be appreciated. I honestly believe that the world needs to be touched by the kindness and embrace it as pathway in their own lives...
Thank you to those of you out there who are not afraid to love, not afraid to cry. I thank you again and again, from here to eternity.
Happy Reading
BUT anyways...I was thinking back to a story that I heard about the day after mothers day and it really touched my heart it was about a young man a pitcher for the Oakland A's named Dallas Braden, this young man lost his mother some years back I am not sure how many, but this game was on mother's day. He pitched his first perfect game on Mother's Day and sadly enough his mother was not there to see him complete this amazing feat. His grandmother however was there to see it. And this touched me so greatly, when I heard about this I thought how wonderful for him. I also thought of how sad it made me that more people didn't care about the sweet emotional significance.
Again on this subject I think of Phil Mickelson and his win at the Masters this year and how touching it was to see his wife who is battling for her lfe with breast cancer as is his mother to be there to hug him that end. And to see in his eyes that nothing meant more in the world than to hold her in his arms to be able to share his accomplishments with her, that green jacket could come or go, but in his arms is where he always wanted her to stay.
In a world where we gawk more that train wrecks that are in the public eye ie Lindsay Lohan, Tiger Woods and the list goes on...we forget about the sweet inherant goodness and love of one another, and how special that is and how much more that needs to be appreciated. I honestly believe that the world needs to be touched by the kindness and embrace it as pathway in their own lives...
Thank you to those of you out there who are not afraid to love, not afraid to cry. I thank you again and again, from here to eternity.
Happy Reading
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